It is often said that before you die your life passes before your eyes. It is in fact true. It's called living. -Terry Pratchett
Friday, June 11, 2010
djinn talks to the bishop, ahh.... no one.
I have an addiction. To LDS blogs. As only pixels get thrown around, no one gets physically hurt, but it just has to stop. There are rules, and just like in church, where I failed, I am failing at the simple process of commenting. On said blogs. I hereby pledge to not post or read a single LDS blog tomorrow, hope I can exend this to Saturday, then Sunday, then.... forever?
Can I get a witness?
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Witnessed!
I was surprised by the words "failed" and "failing." Perhaps my surprise is because my own experience felt different. When I disengaged with the LDS church and most of its culture, I hardly thought of it as my failure, but rather a mutual acknowledgment that we weren't a great fit. Neither of us, me nor the church culture, was going to convince each other of anything. Ultimately, my experience with Mormonism informed my position that proselytizing is inherently manipulative and condescending, and, whether or not I succeed, try to avoid missionary work - for any perspective, even one I consider "more open" or "better - altogether.
But perhaps I am trying to convince you that my alleged non-proselytizing stance is "better" and therefore this is inherently proselytizing and I am full of it?
Perhaps. Hypocrisy can be insidious like that. Or maybe I'm just really trying to "live by example" that I am happier in my alleged non-proselytizing state.
And I can go around and around . . .
Not that you're asking, but my advice would be to switch your focus, and engage in conversations that are mutually fulfilling, online or otherwise.
I could never proselytize simply because I'm such a bad salescreature. Mormonism, my involvement--I originally wanted to please my parents--but that certainly wasn't enough to keep me in. After my mother died without a resolution to the "mormon question" in my life (she never gave up trying to get me back, I never stopped feeling like a failure in my family) I just wanted to just get some kind of peace with my culture of birth.
I just have to choose a different way.
I appreciate the comment, btw.
i hope you don't stay away from the moblogs. i enjoy your informed, impassioned voice. you are among the few posters/commenters i consistently enjoy reading on any topic.
it just makes me sad every time you apologize and request that your comments be deleted. you are needed there.
Thank you so much Marta; I'm so afraid of intruding, hence my request for my posts to be deleted. I can't resist posting sometimes (when commenters make blatantly false statements) but then my Mormon upbringing bubbles up and I feel guilty as hell.
So, perhaps, I'll reconsider. If people actually don't consider me a pest.
Thanks again.
I confess, I haven't been able to keep my resoution; I've been kicking up a fuss at the following thread: http://timesandseasons.org/index.php/2010/06/lds-public-square/
It's about Gay marriage.
I think I'ven just been subtly asked to shut up on the Mormon blogs. Sorry. You can always write me here.
djinn - I'd like to second what Marta wrote. And I've apologized once over at T&S, but I'm gonna do it again here for good measure. Nobody's got the right to be telling you to shut up, there or anywhere else.
Chino Blanco, Thank you very much for your support, which really means so much to me; but in the larger world Times and Seasons just bannned me, so I guess they disagree with you.
Well, with the rapidity that I'm getting deleted from Mormon blogs this may soon be a moot point. I can't invoke the priesthood, nor can I invoke faith. Only logic. And my big mouth. Fail. Thanks for the support; it means more to me than I can say.
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